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[04 Mar 2005|11:54am]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | Konstantine:spmething corporate ]

Hey everyone.. I am just sitting here at Marion's house. I woke up at like 11:00. I have to find a way to get to teh School to get my h.w.. We have to finish cleaing the house, then I have to go to the mall and get the rest of my bathing suit. Then I have to come home, shave, shower, and then get ready to go. And then WERE OFF!!!! Yesss.. A party all weekend. I'm not your star....... We went to bed pretty early last night. And yeah, we had Jones Soda. And we played with a heated sensations condom.. It was soo funn I liked it.. We like filled it with Rasberry Jello then put it in the freezer n shit. It was funn as hell.. lol.... My Konstantine is walking down the stairs, doesn't she look good standing in her underwear.. Dammit your sooo young and I dont think I care. God this cigg. is soo f'ing good. Wow, ai have been like vraving it like soooo bad all last night and today. yah.. ne way.. i cant wait until like later.

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[28 Feb 2005|07:06pm]
Have You Ever:
(x) snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city
(x) saw a shooting star
( ) been to any other countries besides Canada
( ) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
(x) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
(x) swore at your parents-
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
( ) been scuba diving
( ) broken a bone
(x) been high
( ) skinny-dipped
( ) skipped school
( ) flashed someone
(x) saw a therapist
(x) done the splits
(x) played spin the bottle
( ) gotten stitches
(x) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
( ) gotten poison ivy
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
( ) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
(x) Driven over 400 miles in one day
(x) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
( ) Been to Hawaii
( ) Seen a volcano
(x) Been on a plane
(x)Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
(x) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
( ) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been skiing/snowboarding/tubing
(x) Been camping
(x)Been camping in the snow
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
(x) thought about killing yourself
(x)fired a gun
(x) purposely hurt yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) Been in a car accident
( ) Had Sex
(x) Lied about your age
(x)Sat online for over 4 hours
(x)Had a crush on someone you never met
(x)Been drunk
(x)Fell asleep on the phone
( )Went streaking
(x)seen a concert
(x)Met someone famous
( )almost died
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[25 Feb 2005|12:52pm]
You know what I am just figuring out? Nobody ever comments on my page.. I think I might leave lj.
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Logan's House [25 Feb 2005|03:04am]
[ music | Maroon 5 cribs ]

Yeah.. So I just walked(climbed) throight my window to come back into the house. Yess I snuck out.
*Smack Hand*

Anyways, Me and Marion went over Logan's house. Where the hell else would we go at 12.00? Yeah.. We also went to go running, which I did, a full lap and a half. Thank you. Marion only did a quarter.. Fuckin wussy. lol. I pansed Marion like 4x no joke it was fuckin hilarious. Then we went in his window.. which lead to his room. And we all sat down and got compfy, and watched House of a 1000 Corpses. Weird/good movie. While we were watching that movie he was eating a jawbreaker (3 of them) and he was like " You want one huh" and I was like, " Yeah" and he was like, " Well, too bad", so then I was all like, "Spit it in my hand" So he spit it in my hadn and the jawbreaker became mine. It was soo good too. We were all messin around with each other. (Oh, I like Logan, and He's single, and Marion don't like him at all){or at least not like that}.

So we were all hitting eachother, smakin, and shit. It was splendiferous. Wow, I can't belive I just used that word. lol, I don't think I have used that word since like last week. [lol]
After that movie was over, Logan turned on Barber Shop 2. . I had some pop, then yea. I want to tell people what happend the rest of the time but you know that saying, (What happens{in Cobo}, stays {in Cobo}) yeah, well


What happen's at Logan's stay's at Logan's.

And, so now, here I am.. Updating my journal. I think it's my longest hand writtin/typed update that I have had in here. wow... Anywho? I am hungary and tired all at the same time.. And I think Marion is getting bored so yeah.. ttyl..

Love you Logan

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[24 Feb 2005|12:54pm]
Hey People. I have a blue house with a blue window.
I am listening to that song. I love it like soo f'ing much. lol


It would nbe sooo f'ing perfent for Club Inferno... Or DDR.. For those of you who don't know what that is.. Dance Dance Revolution.. Anyway..

Me and Marion went to Logan's house again. WE went yesterday. Me and Logan got into a fight with belts.. It was fun. I got like whipped in the face, back n shit... He was like "Take it Negro style.. We both paused and laughed." Then yeah.. We left a lil while after that.

He walked us home, like usual. Yeah.. Then we came home and like chilled for a while. Then Logan called us at like idk 1 or 130.. idk.. WE talked until like 3. or a little before that..

Yeah.. Today Allison Marion's sister made us this really good breakfast. And braught it to us in bed. That was the first time I ever had " Breakfast in Bed" Yeah.

I also had yogurt. It was yummy. its 12.58 right now.. I think I started writing this lik 3 minutes ago. I am watching Judging Amy. Marion is in the shower. I am going to the movies tomarrow hopefully. Yeah. Oh, and I am going to dye my hair.. My roots are like coming in.. ewwie.. well i got other shit to do now so yeah ttyl
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At Marions House [22 Feb 2005|11:46am]
Hey everyone, I am at Marions house right now.. Course when am I not over here?

i am holding her jet black cat KitKat he loves me everytime I sit down he's right there. He's purring. lol

marion wants to cut al of Kit kats hair OFF.. wth whutta friggin retard. I swear I don't get her.


We are watching "My Girl". We both really like this movie alot. It is kinda sad.

Yeah, well she is going to cut of some hair even though her mom was like no.. lol. But I dont know it seems like some fun so I am gonna go and watch her!!
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A Song Lyric Update [21 Feb 2005|10:19am]
With nothing but a t-shirt on I never felt so beautiful baby as I do now, now that I'm with you.. I love that song...


This is how we do.

Yeah I'd spill I'd spill my heart for you.. Yeah I'd spill my heart for you
my hands around your throat and I think I hate you,
we make the same mistkaes mistakes like frends do.. Yeah
we made the same mistkaes mistakes like frends do Gotta love that song.. I do.. <33333





And I cant take it I cant shake it no..
Before we said our goodbyes.. And its a shame we gotta spend out time being mad about the same things..
O.. but I think shes leaving.. I dont know what else to do..
And I was to DAMN stubborn to try to stop you or say anything..
I can't go on not loving you..
Now that I realize that im going down from all the pain im going through,
Everytime I close my eyes i like it down.. (that ones a favorite..)



On the border line of the edge and where I walk alone...
I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone
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[21 Feb 2005|09:40am]
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
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[20 Feb 2005|11:58am]
[ music | Ashlee Simpson Show ]

Heyy everyone whats up?

n2mh juss chillin here I guess.

I am on the phone with nathan.. I just hung up with him though.lol.. yeah.. So matt came over last night. we watched Boogieman. It was tight as hell. He was kind of annoying though. Yeah. Me and Marion went to the mall yesterday. we seen Logan, Shelby, Jacob, Malina, Chelsi, and Kevin, Oh and Jamie. There was like alot of people up there. I got a HIM poster, 8 pins, 2 ICP postcards, total BITCH lotion, a pack of gum, a wristband*like a livestrong one.. And yeah.. We are watching the Ashlee Simpson show. God I can't stand her or her sister. Ewwie. I got a pin that says LOSER, I kissed Ben, I <3 Ben, I <3 Justin, Slipknot, and 2 heartagram ones for me and Justin. lol. <33.
Yeah.


It snowed alot yesterday.. God.. yucky.

well I have to go now but I will update again later.

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[06 Jan 2005|02:10pm]
Hey, Today is a SNOWDAY.. Yay.. I didnt have to wake-up early.. I woke up at like 11:00. Yay... I have a new myspace name I like it.. the pics are gay though.. Owell.. I like it... im me to see the pics of me and my friends.. twist3dm3mori3s.. AIM
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Yah [02 Jan 2005|01:00pm]
[ mood | hungry ]
[ music | Join Me:H.I.M ]

So, its been a really long tim e since I have been on here. I know I say that every time but this time I am really serious. I have been on Vaca. I was in Minnesota. Mall of America of course...
Yeah, I spent ALOT of money there. It was soo cool. Like, Camp Snoopy (Theme Park), it was soooooo sweet.
We had alot of fun there.
And OMG there were soo many hot ass guys there it isn't even funny. I touched a stingray.
And to my surprise they were really slimy, it was kinda gross, but they are sooo cute I was like aww.
We also went into this Underwater Adventures thing. It was soo fuckin rad, I saw Sharks, Fish, Puffer Fishes, Squid, a whole lotta shit. That was cool. Then after that we went into this like thing, you like sit in it and it like moves all over to a picture show.. I can't think of the name.. Yeah.. But that was sweet it was hot in there so I kinda got a little bit of a headache. PoooP

We ate Burger King in there. On the 3rd floor. With all the restourants in the mall you could like fit them all on one floor. oooh ooh ooh, we also ate at Bubba Gump Shrimp Co. It was good. I got Momma's Southern Fried Chicken. It was seriously like the best chicken I have ever eaten, aside from my moms homeade chicken nuggots.
At the train station on our way home, my mom went outside to smoke and made friends with these to gay guys I was like go mom wurking the gay dudes. We both giggled for a minute. OMG, we had such a probelm in the Chicago train station. It's too long to say but NOBODY was happy at all, some dude even almost got arrested 'n' shit. It was crazy. We had these really good hot dogs though. They were made with Polish Sausege. I spent 93.00$ in Hot Topic. It is like soooo much bigger then ours here. They had like cd's n shit, way more cloths too. It was soo radxcore... omg. And when we went out to dinner with my moms friend Tim, who lives there he braught his wife and 2 kids.. omg.. His son Matt. He's 15. Sooo hott. Dinner was expensive though it was 211.00$ Tip not included... All that for 6 people geeze.. Christmas was good. I guess you could say I got alot of stuff so? Yeah. I guess thats good too? My Birthday was awesome too. I was "Lovin It" Yeah, but I am hungary now, so I am going to eat. Sorry about the long update but it has been like almost a month I think.. :)

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[10 Dec 2004|02:25pm]
Heyy. I am at school
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What Do You Think of ME? [26 Nov 2004|10:59am]
What Do You Think of Me?
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how fucking amazing am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I lovable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't (if so. do it.)?
31. Do you think I could kill someone? who?
32. Are you going to put this on your GreatestJournal and see what I say about you?
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Bord [18 Nov 2004|09:17am]
[ music | Leaving Neverland..... ]

I am bord out of mind. I have like nothing to do. I am like tired, hungary, and then all of those things opposite?
How that is possible I don't know. I swear I hope Mrs.Mlknek falls, and then drowns in the pool, to then die. I think it would be the best in the world.
It seems that I might not get to go to Gaudior Night. That sux...
I really wanted to see my ex-boyfriend Michael, and Andy, but I don't think Andy was going anyway. So?!?
That basketball game was interesting. We like lost sooo f'ing bad. I want to like get HIGH I swear to go, I need to hang out with like Bekka or Todd or something. I dont know but like I am like feining like really bad. And personally, I am like just shocked that Bekka is still friends with me because of the whole Natalie bullshit. I dont know I am just glad that she is friends with me.
Now that I have been blabbering on about one thing I am going to like either talk about something else or just GO DIE. O, I am getting a new background. I think you people will like it.

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[08 Nov 2004|04:39pm]
I hate ANGEL...
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[08 Nov 2004|12:20am]
[ music | Lynsey and Eric talking/fighting ]

I am at Lynsey's house right now... I dyed my hair a lighter blonde but the bronw underneath stayed in and the black bangs too I am pissed OFF... I think it looks okay, my mom still don't know about it.... I don't care if she gets mad... I went to the store today, and got a new belt, amd new under'ROOS... lol. Eris is like sooo mad at me because he knows I used to cut myself... Owell... I am going out to breakfast , with Lynsey and one other person... Steve.... Eric is pissed about that.... Asshole...Gotta go get redy now

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Bored [05 Nov 2004|06:00pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Three Days Grace ]

Yeah I am like so fuckin bored. I was just on the ohone with Katie but like she hung-up on me... Owell I guess. I am like supposed to be going tanning with Linz and then we were going to hang out? I will have to call her but wait her phone is OFF... I am like also supposed to be making my mom her dinner right now butlike I dont want to cause she is not even awake?!? I am talking to this Gurrl Amanda she is Awesome x core.. Some of my friends and ex friends are at the Casualties concert right now jammin their asses off. Have Fun Natalie and Bill. I recieved a candybar in music class today... Whoop whoop
I am kinda mad at Cari for liking Christian, but he dont like me anyway so I dont know hy I am a little mad at her anyway. I stayed after school the other day to get help with math. I still like need a little bit of help. well I am getting bored now so like call my cell pleeze I want to talk to somebody cuse I am like soo bord...

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[04 Nov 2004|08:16pm]
[ mood | crappy ]
[ music | The O.C ]

Hey, Yeah sorry I haven't updated in like forever, I have been some-what busy with my greatest journal. Yeah I have been going onto the internet in computer class, even when I am not supposed to. Me and Natalie are still not talking. I am soo giving up. I so didn't get to go out on Halloween. I am not grounded anymore. I am going tanning this weekend. Uhm, I voted for Kerry in the school-wide vote, and HE WON. Bush won the actual election though. That fuckin suucks. Owell. I am bored, and Christian is still not like talking to me. I am soo upset. Kenneth, is so hot. I almost made-out with him. But I didn't, then next time I see him I am soo going to. I am watching The O.C right now. I love this fuckin show. I am going to a part this weekend. I can't wait he will be there. Uhmm, I am going to go a-nd see The Grudge. Or whatever ti is called. I also want to see Saw. It looks really really good. I got my cell fone back. w00t w00t. I changed my background today, I like it better now. Cari is talking to me now. Yeah I am so proud. I have a really annoying ringing in my ear, and it won't go away. Owell.. C_ya l8r

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[06 Oct 2004|03:38pm]
[ mood | devious ]
[ music | Anti Flag ]

Yeah I am bored and my MOTHERFUCIN mother won't let me go to the football gaem. I was going to have fun too. Owell... Yeah today we had a pep really. It was soo fun/funny. Me and Hannah and Cari had soo much fun. I like talking to Bob online. He is so funny/weird/silent. I think Logan is soo hot but he goes out with Cari Mother fucker. Yeah and I also think that Christian is really hott. And so is Sparkes {Brian}. Ummm...Natalie isn't talking to me (still). I don't blame her but I don't know. I kinda miss her. We had alot of fun together (I thought so at least.) Yeah I think she fuckin hated my gutts. But if she cant get over what happened then thats her fault not mine. Chris is 22. Yeah Natalie found out his name for me (thank you sooo much). Yeah I started to set up my Halloween shit last night. I have also been eating the hell of of my candycorn. I like it so much. I like chicken. Yeah my Grandma jut got a hot tub. I like it so much. I have sat in in like so many times. It is like great for parties. I got an E in Anderson's class. A B- in Math. A D+ in S.S and a C- in Enrichment. Whoopie. Who gives a rats big black ass. I want to see Bekka and Shane (who by the way is hott like whoa w00t w00t).I have bad cramps right now. I am also drinking coke. I saw New York minute with the sluttie twins. And it was actually pretty good I guess. I thought it was funny. I want to go and see the Grudge. Umm I miss you STEPHANY. W0Ow. Yeah I can't wait for Halloween I am going to be Benji (yeah fuck the people who hate good charlotte and him) My mom says she is going to give or sell or throw away my concert tickets for the Nintendo Fusion Tour I don't think she will it was a woppin $50.Yeah I failed my computer test but I think I am typing just fine dontya think?
I do.. Yeah well this is getting kind long now so I want to say Hey to all the ppl who arent mad at me for those who are GET OVER IT...

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[26 Sep 2004|01:41pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | Green Day(American Idiot) ]

I am bored,I am talking to Alex Sytek. And Tiffany... I am trying to find out who Alex likes. He won't give it up? He likes someone with long hair.OOOOhh who cares anyway. I don't even like him. Everybody has this kid Ryan is WERID. I don't care. I went and baught the new Green Day cd today. I am lostening to it right now. Fun Fun Fun.Umm, I am hngary. And every time Hanna gets online I a never online, but we will talk sometime today?

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